What does it mean to be psychic?

Hi hello 👋🏼This post is overdue. Frankly, this whole damn blog is overdue. If you’re here you care, so let me catch you up…

I’ve been in the midst of a huge life transition. In late January I moved back to Massachusetts after living on the west coast for 5 years. This was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make by far (probably dramatic, but we’ll go with it), & for many reasons. Mainly because it required me to get passed a shit-ton of ego bullshit (oh yes, this will be an all-me-no-holding-back kind of blog—this WILL be the tswift of blogs) as well as jump off a cliff without knowing what was at the bottom. For real. I had no concrete certainty or understanding as to why I was being pulled to move back home. It also would require me to ask for help (which I’m not good at by the way) & then receive said help without guilt (equally not as good at).

Let’s unpack.

On a deep level, I knew it was time to go. Like a little nugget of certainty buried under all the layers of bs. I knew probably about 6-8 months prior to actually stepping off the ledge (profuse apologies to all my pdx besties who had to listen to me, on many occasion, agonize over the decision. Y’all are the real MVPs—love you mean it 💙).

I mean, I dragged my feet hard (something I’m good at!). I had all the feelings. I wouldn’t just be leaving a magical place where I rediscovered myself. I wouldn’t just be parting with a whole life (that I created on my own) filled with friends, my neighborhood, my coffee shop & favorite benches & bridges & pnw trees. I’d also be returning back to a place that I closed the door on. Maybe slammed the door & then burned it down is more accurate 😬. Walked out with a big, energetic middle finger in the air. Deuces ✌🏼. BOY BYE. “Good riddance MA, see ya never!”

Well 😐I was angry. I felt like life had lied to me & I had been cheated out of 27 years. So I blew it all up & created a brand new one. Sometimes, that’s what you gotta do (a post for another day).

So now I’m back & starting over once again. New experiences, new job, new people, new phase. And with that comes answering the popular question: “You’re psychic?! What does that mean?”

Being psychic isn’t having 100% certainty in everything you do. Being psychic is about being open to discovering what you do not know.

It’s always been a difficult question for me to answer & I’ve had a few different ones over the years. However, this is my in-present-time answer & I feel like it’s what most people are really seeking when they ask the question. Sure, they wanna know if I talk to dead people or read tarot or am I an empath.

Yes.

But being psychic is so much more than that. If those are the modalities to being psychic, the energy of being psychic is curiosity, trust & self-awareness.

Being psychic is about shifting your attention from everything outside of you to what’s happening inside of you. It’s an integration of body & spirit. Combining what you intuitively know as true for you with how you feel. It’s about being open to possibility. Being open to the idea that you don’t have all the answers. It’s about going forth in trust, without attachment to any particular outcome. It’s about releasing control.

As a psychic woman, the biggest thing I’ve come to realize over the last few months is that the idea I have in my head about something I want (a goal, wish, hope, desire) 100% of the time doesn’t entirely match up with what I receive. Energy is funny like that. It may look 90% of what I want, but it’s that last 10 that will get me. I’ll get hung up on it not being exactly what I envisioned. That it’s not a perfect picture of my manifestation.

Yikes. Just typing that out makes me cringe.

Being open to the possibility of things not looking or going how you thought they would, releasing control, trusting the path, & accepting a little challenge—that’s what being psychic is.

A constant state of learning & unlearning. It’s a commitment to self & most definitely not easy, but everyone has the ability do it.

in full feminine chaos + pdx + november 2020

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